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Never stop dreaming and believing

Hello there,

I know I was inactive for more than a year, but it’s only due to my personality and my health problems – vegetative dystonia. All this time I was struggling, but all in all I feel better now, but anyway it’s still a long way to go to recover fully. I don’t want to think about what I went through, but what I want to achieve and do in my further life.

When You have almost none close person You fully trust, it’s sometimes hard to live, but I do believe in God and my dreams. When im ready to break-down, I return to my dreams and refill my motivation.

I am using pharmaceutical drugs and psychotherapy on my recovery process and I feel a little bit better now, less panic attacks and more inspiring thoughts will bring me back on the track.

I want to say “thank’s” to everyone here on WordPress who inspired me and are sending me good thoughts and wishes.  Appreciate all of them. I would like to hear something about You, dear reader. What have you achieved during last year and what are your aims for this year. Share on the comment section down below and achieve them together.

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Between a struggle and living

Greetings!

I was thinking the headline of my topic for a while and decided to stick with this one.
I haven’t published my post with three awards I have been nominated for just because headline says it all. I hope I will post that somewhen later, but anyway thank’s for nominations.

While not posting everyday or even once in a week doesn’t mean that my intentions have changed, it means that I have been thinking a lot. Especially last two weeks while I’m struggling with some kind of panic attack. I got accustomed with these attacks, but this one seems longer than those before and it makes me feel as a crap.
I decided to take a private lessons and help those kids to understand school subjects better, but now I have lost myself and belief in myself. No need to say that I have stopped taking lessons.

I started to feel sick on one evening and thought it’s just a cold, will sleep and everything will be okey, but no.. It’s hard to watch on food especially after I have had a meal, just because I’m human and I can be sometimes hungry, too. After that I cannot watch on food and enjoy social life, just because I’m afraid of myself and worried I could fall to the ground from sickness.. If You will type in google “emetophobia” then You will understand..
I think it’s all because of stress, but otherwise I don’t know what happens. I don’t feel like me, but hopefully healing massages will help me to find my way through these obstacles. I have a lot to do for others and need to help them and don’t want to stop this right now.

What’s the point of this topic? This is just a topic of my thoughts and conclusions. And the conclusion is that You should try to understand especially Your loved ones whenever they say they feel bad. You should say to him/her that everything will be more than OK, even if You are not sure, but he or she should not see doubts in Your eyes. It’s right time to turn to Your loved ones and say You truly love them, because You don’t know what will be tommorow. It’s not a shame to die tommorow, it’s a shame to die and understand You haven’t done all You could for Your loved ones. I wish I had enough power to do my best for others. But need to continue.. to believe.. again.

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Peace and love..

From collapse of Anorexia to University

Hello everyone!

It’s been a while since I published my last post, this time was fillled with a lot of thoughts about my future, how can I improve the quality of life for others and what should I do to make that happen.

Today I want to share with You one story I found pretty similar as mine.. As far as I think it’s almost impossible to find the story same as mine, I find this pretty close..

It’s Katie’s story.. She is 21 now and she is studying Creative Writing at Cumbria University. This is something great, but everything was not before she started to study.
She also struggled with anorexia when she was 14. She was the only girl in the class of four where three of them were hormone-raging teen boys.
Stress multiplied in her life when her parents told their marriage was in trouble.

She found that almost nothing is right in her life and hoped that losing some weight and improving fitness would make things about to change. She assumed that thin people have amazing lives and she wanted that one for herself as well.

She cut out fats, carbs and dairy and lived on rice cakes, apples and lettuce. She became addicted. “Nothing mattered more than satisfying the mystery voice’s need for weight loss and perfection.

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Her weight dropped from 8.5st to under 5st.hair fell out,  skin cracked and bled, bones ached and her periods stopped. “But I still didn’t believe I was thin enough. When I looked in the mirror, a mound of blubber stared back.”

Eventually, she collapsed and ended up in hospital after having a minor heart attack while riding a bike. She was admitted to a psychiatric ward in a hospital in Middlesbrough, where where she stayed for the next nine months. After that – she started to eat one again, but her recovery was slow. Also as mine actually was. She received a lot of support from her family.
She have had a couple of relapses, but five years on she is fully recovered, with few long-lasting effects. Also her periods have come back so she can have children. And this is amazing in my opinion, because this experienced and awesome lady will be awesome mother even just because she experienced problem which is left in a shadow for a lot of times… A problem, from which suffer around 3% of population.

“Aim to live every day as though it’s your last and not submit to anorexia. Try to defeat anorexia before it defeats you. Always remember that help is out there.” – Katie

Comment from me: Katie’ s story is quite inspiring, I’m glad she can have kids now and she is able to live better life even those long-lasting effects no one who haven’t suffered from anorexia won’t understand. Keep going, Katie! 🙂

Make the best from Your day, dear reader! Trust Yourself that You can beat whatever You desire and You can help and inspire a lot of others. Don’t forget that.

The road to success: A Winner’s attitude

Hello, I’m glad to be here and share these important things to You.Thanks for those amazing comments on previous topics.

Last time I gave You an advise – think about what You love or at least what You are interested in. Whether You are already decided what You are passionate about or not – it’s not so important. You can decide tommorow – but as long as You won’t spend time thinking about what you love – nothing will happen (after reading  this topic I hope You will find the answer – why?), but You should start by finding out what You truly like and after that You can transfer Winner’s attitude to everyday’s life.
This is one of my favourite part – how to think like a Winner and also how to be that one. So let’s begin.

Actually there is only one rule that You must accept. If You want to be a Winner, then You need to make a promise. The promise to Never Ever Give Up. Make the promise to never quit what ever you’re into and what ever You choose to set out to finish the race. If You have found being a doctor as Your passion – great, do it. If You have found being a teacher as Your passion – well done! If Your dream is to collect 10 000 postages – go for it!

You will have a lot of challanges and failures You think are failures, but person who has Winner’s attitude would think differently. Failure in reality shouldn’t exist in Your mind – for the only time You truly fail is when You give up. With a Winner’s mind You don’t lose – You learn. As a result, You are now able to learn and grow constantly. Now I know – when I was at my lowest point – I was learning, not failing. Be open to ideas and suggestions from the right people to help get an advance in the game You are playing.

Why is it so important not to give up? Because You are the only one who is responsible for Your life. At my lowest point it was only up to myself. Sintija tried to motivate me, but the final decision was up to me. Your goals and dreams won’t  get up and come to You. You have to go and get them. One of my dreams is to find that mysterious girl Sintija and I am going for it now for about 6 years and I won’t quit this marathon. The second dream what I’m not going to abandon is about my own family once. But the real enemy that often holds us back is ourselves. It’s not the economy, neighbours or even friends. You should get out of Your own way to become successful. Right? There are many people who think one thing or another is impossible. Make that one like IM possible. People think they fail every day and they fail because they don’t think as a Winner. If they would think – they would say: „I’m learning constantly.”

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I could discuss a lot more, but at the end of the topic I would like to say – Your success will come from the actions You actually take. Life doesn’t reward those with potential or those who feel they deserve it. Life rewards those who understand the simplest of truths – taking action. Roger Federer – amazing tennis player, isn’t brilliant just because he has potential, he is brilliant by taking action – in this case – playing tennis. You will have whatever You desire in life when Your reasons of taking actions become stronger than Your excuses.

Here is a big lesson for You: The world we live in is a world that is constantly evolving. If You are not evolving Your mind in a winning way, being open to change, accepting it and adapting to it, then You will be left behind. (Kevin Abdulrahman) I agree. How about You?

Have an amazing Winning month,

Uldis