As You noticed, before several years I faced some difficulties and now I’m trying to figure it out how it all happened and how my experience can improve someone’s life.
As You see from the headline, it doesn’t mean that I have no consequences nowadays just because I faced anorexia several years ago. It does mean that every single day is an amazing challenge for me even after 6 years. There is a huge difference between what I call amazing and a bit harder day. And it’s almost impossible to predict which of these days will be tommorow.
I can wake up smiling like a 6 years old boy who has got new toy car yesterday, however there are many days I would like to smash that car. It’s so frustrating to wake up and feel pain in my stomach, feel nervous and realize that I have a headache. Together it makes total weakness and I’m frustrating because I don’t know why I must feel this pain… Am I doing something wrong in my life? Am I hurting someone and this is a payback?
There are many days I can’t even move straight.. But as I meantioned above I have those amazing days and these are a days in which I try to make my life successful and try to help others. Even those painful days filled with weakness won’t stop me just because I always have a hope that there are persons whose life could be improved.. maybe in the way by sharing my personal experience.
In other words, don’t give up even if You have 7 or 10 painful days in a row.. You know that after there will be a day that can change your life and improve other’s. Just keep going! 🙂 At least You should try it.